poor fools
they’ll hang on to everything but the truth
truth about themselves
appearances
words
gestures
emotions
achievements
“proofs”
theories
validation
reasons and excuses
EVERYTHING
but the truth
is it even possible to change?
is it even possible to change oneself?
how desperately we don’t want to change
EVERYTHING is against us
Everything is against us
Our entire lives, in how we lived them and live them every day — are the prison we can’t escape — not without breaking the walls
which is to break that very life, to end it
Everyone is against us
Every single person in our lives is a testament to our life heretofore
And in that he’s the guard of you continuing to live that same very way
You must kill them all
Kill your mother and father
Kill your brother
Everything is against us
Your mind is only good at rationalising your condition
Your emotions are your learnt blueprint of living, the muscle which keeps you walking the way you’ve learnt to walk
Your emotions are a SHOCK COLLAR
Can you not delude you?
Can you resist the appearances, the words, the gestures, the emotions, the achievements, the “proofs”, the theories, the validation, the reasons and excuses??
Can you resist all this fucking nonsense and just focus on WHAT IS and WHAT WORKS?
Can you resist making an appearance?
Looking better then you are
Can you resist beautiful words to conceal your stupidity?
Can you resist making a big fucking show, making a lot of fucking noise — rather then actually doing something, changing something?
Can you resist the flood of emotions? Can you understand your emotions? Can you receive them — then release them — so that your mind should clear up?
And then can you actually use your mind like a tool — tool of intelligence — tool of truth? Can you direct it to the truth, on actual, empirical FACTS — facts about the world , facts about what you ACTUALLY know about yourself — rather then use it as tool of SELF-DELUSION?
Can you NOT use your mind for self-delusion? Can you resist using it that way? Can you not get into long RATIONALISATIONS and THEORIES and REASONS and all that?
And can you resist it’s desire to CONCLUDE and LABEL? Can you just work with what you got — without approving it or condemning it and always making sense out of it?
I see it everywhere
And obviously in me, for I’m homo-sapiens too
No existential threat is as severe as the truth
We will always avoid it
Truth will cut us to thousand pieces
I see it everywhere
The lengths we’ll go to delude ourselves
This terrible conflict of wanting to change — yet fearing it beyond all else
I see it everywhere
But the truth is simple
Truth about you and what you do with you is simple
There’s where you are
What you think you want
What you do
What you see
The results you get, every day
Which you can measure
And some you can predict
…and what you can’t predict really isn’t the biggest of your problems
There’s all this obvious truth, day-to-day truths, about decisions you make and consequences which result
…yet there you are, wasting time for all this distraction of BIG WORDS, BIG EMOTIONS, BIG PLANS, BIG APPEARANCES, BIG SHOWS, BIG GESTURES, BIG IDEAS, BIG FUCKING NONSENSE
end
it
now