You’re not “ok”
and it’s ok
You’re not “ok”
Chances are there’s something NOT “ok” about you
And if there’s not — then there will be
You will soon enough not be so “ok”, as you’re rotting in the ground
Chances are you’ll be rotting even before you’re rotting
Your health will rot
Your mind will rot
And then you will die and rot
IT’S OK
Perhaps you’re already NOT “ok”
Perhaps you wouldn’t hang out with you
Perhaps you wouldn’t give you a job
Perhaps you wouldn’t be a friend to you
Perhaps you wouldn’t date you
Perhaps you wouldn’t reach out a helping hand to you
You’re not ok
And it’s ok
Not all of us are “ok”
Some of us are FUCKED
We are broken and traumatised
We’ve only known ugliness in this world
Now we’re ugly
We’re not “ok”
And we make matters more ugly
That’s not ok
We’re not “ok”
We do well for some time
Then we rot and die
This is the human condition
Accept it
We pretend it’s otherwise
For ourselves — then for others
In the old times there was no time for pity over the weak and ugly of this world — you had to take care of yourself
Today there’s plenty to share
Foremost — today it’s FASHIONABLE to share and care and make equal and signal on social media
And we do just that
Pretend we’re ok and pretend others are ok
And fail to condemn what’s really not ok
And condemn not that which is NOT ok — but that which has a different fucking idea about the world, and what’s ok
And this is a problem
You’d think today’s culture is more oppressive: anti-this and anti-that
Actually it’s too permitting
It is oppressive in how it forces us to be permitting
Permitting of our ugliness and uselessness
Uselessness which would not have survived in the past
And we cannot speak against it because it’s no longer appropriate
But fuck the media and their stupid agenda, I don’t care
It’s our psyche
We hoping so much that we’re ok
Meantime hating ourselves
Hating ourselves because we don’t accept ourselves
We don’t accept ourselves because we deny who we are
We deny that we’re not ok
E.g.:
-We deny that we’re NOT where we want to be in our lives
-Deep within we hate ourselves for it
-We talk ourselves into believing that it’s “ok”
-Media pats us on the shoulder, telling us that it’s “ok”
-If we only ceased denying our problems — we would be able to start making changes
-If we only started making changes — we wouldn’t hate ourselves for staying the same way
-We’re not ok and it’s ok. We can change
But this doesn’t happen
This denial not only persists on the individual level: but it’s PROJECTED onto the world
And now we’re so permitting — really we’re just so in denial
I accept that i will get old and die
And in my last years — chances are I be sick and useless
I accept that the generations after me will be so much smarter
I accept that there’s a lot of nonsense in my mind, that I will not have gotten rid of before I’m rotting in the ground
I accept my place in society — be it “fair” or not. I accept my share of resources; It’s more then my ancestors could have hoped for
If I live unhealthily — I will be disgusted by it; Like I am disgusted by fat people and their sickness
I am disgusted by uselessness; Yet I accept that sad nature of uselessness, the flawed education and demotivation; I myself could be more useful. It’s not ok to be useless
I don’t engage in stupid behaviours, to the extent to which I recognise them as stupid; I am not very fond of posing criticism, but obviously I denounce everything I deem stupid. There is no excuse for stupidity
I don’t wanna hear “it’s ok”
I know what is “ok” and what ISN’T “OK”
and that’s OK
It’s ok that I’m NOT ok
I am getting better
We are doing our best
Everyone is doing their best
We are SLOWLY getting better
We’re OK because we are HUMAN
That’s why we’re ok
And that involves all the ways in which we’re NOT ok: all our problems and struggles and misgivings
And they can’t continue being DENIED
And I don’t want to hear what I’m allowed to like or not like, and what I’m allowed to criticise or not criticise
I’m not afraid to say that we are FUCKED
Because I know that it’s ok