You’re Either Alive — Or Distracting Yourself

you’re either alive — or distracting yourself

when you’re scared to live — you’re distracting yourself

when you’re confused — you’re distracting yourself

when you’re tired — you’re distracting yourself

you’re scared of the unknown, you’d rather retain homeostasis

you’re confused, you’d rather not seek the truth, you’re overwhelmed, you’re arrogant, you’d rather delude yourself, you’d rather be ignorant

you’re tired, you only have so much energy, you only have so much strength

therefore you’re distracting yourself

you’re distracting yourself — until something inspires you to live again

you’re distracting yourself — until something forces you to act again

you’re distracting yourself — until you get so sick of this FALSE EXISTENCE that you’d rather do anything then this nothing

but then you get tired, get uncomfortable, get confused — and distract yourself again

and so it goes, round and round

You obviously would rather be alive

…You don’t always understand it

Perhaps you delude yourself so successfully so as to believe your distraction is NOT a distraction

Or that it is benign

But you know

Deep within you know

You know you could have been alive — but instead you’re distracting yourself

And you know that terrible feeling of not living

You’d rather be alive

You’d rather be alive — alas you’re scared, confused, tired

What now?

Well,

Now you stop distracting yourself

And you live

And you go against your fear and you go against your ignorance and you go against your comfort and you go against your stagnation and you go against tiredness

Obviously

Obviously, since this is a tautology

There’s no magic trick

One day you recognise that you have been distracting yourself — and failing to live

And one day you choose to live

And then you choose to live more

And then you choose to live in spite of fear

And then you choose to live in spite of confusion

And then you choose to live in spite of resistance

And then you choose to live in spite of tiredness

You realize there’s no time for any of that nonsense

And when you’re too petrified — you find a way around

YOU DON’T TURN BACK — you FIND A FUCKING WAY AROUND

It’s either forward or backwards

And when you’re tired — you take a break

But you DON’T DISTRACT YOURSELF

You stay alive

You live

You live your life — never someone else’s

It’s simple really

It’s difficult

It’s all simple once you see

It’s all difficult when you’re blind

Open your eyes

You’re either alive — or distracting yourself

Please open your eyes — see this simple truth — then LIVE