poor fools

they’ll hang on to everything but the truth

truth about themselves

 

appearances

words

gestures

emotions

achievements

“proofs”

theories

validation

reasons and excuses

EVERYTHING

but the truth

 

is it even possible to change?

is it even possible to change oneself?

how desperately we don’t want to change

EVERYTHING is against us

 

Everything is against us

Our entire lives, in how we lived them and live them every day — are the prison we can’t escape — not without breaking the walls

which is to break that very life, to end it

 

Everyone is against us

Every single person in our lives is a testament to our life heretofore

And in that he’s the guard of you continuing to live that same very way

You must kill them all

Kill your mother and father

Kill your brother

 

Everything is against us

Your mind is only good at rationalising your condition

Your emotions are your learnt blueprint of living, the muscle which keeps you walking the way you’ve learnt to walk

Your emotions are a SHOCK COLLAR

 

Can you not delude you?

Can you resist the appearances, the words, the gestures, the emotions, the achievements, the “proofs”, the theories, the validation, the reasons and excuses??

Can you resist all this fucking nonsense and just focus on WHAT IS and WHAT WORKS?

 

Can you resist making an appearance?

Looking better then you are

Can you resist beautiful words to conceal your stupidity?

Can you resist making a big fucking show, making a lot of fucking noise — rather then actually doing something, changing something?

Can you resist the flood of emotions? Can you understand your emotions? Can you receive them — then release them — so that your mind should clear up?

And then can you actually use your mind like a tool — tool of intelligence — tool of truth? Can you direct it to the truth, on actual, empirical FACTS — facts about the world , facts about what you ACTUALLY know about yourself — rather then use it as tool of SELF-DELUSION?

Can you NOT use your mind for self-delusion? Can you resist using it that way? Can you not get into long RATIONALISATIONS and THEORIES and REASONS and all that?

And can you resist it’s desire to CONCLUDE and LABEL? Can you just work with what you got — without approving it or condemning it and always making sense out of it?

 

I see it everywhere

And obviously in me, for I’m homo-sapiens too

No existential threat is as severe as the truth

We will always avoid it

Truth will cut us to thousand pieces

I see it everywhere

The lengths we’ll go to delude ourselves

This terrible conflict of wanting to change — yet fearing it beyond all else

 

I see it everywhere

But the truth is simple

Truth about you and what you do with you is simple

There’s where you are

What you think you want

What you do

What you see

The results you get, every day

Which you can measure

And some you can predict

…and what you can’t predict really isn’t the biggest of your problems

There’s all this obvious truth, day-to-day truths, about decisions you make and consequences which result

…yet there you are, wasting time for all this distraction of BIG WORDS, BIG EMOTIONS, BIG PLANS, BIG APPEARANCES, BIG SHOWS, BIG GESTURES, BIG IDEAS, BIG FUCKING NONSENSE

end

it

now