everything you ever wanted is nothing
the moment you have what you wanted you don’t care
not until you have what you wanted were you able to see it for what it is — nothing at all
all the WANTING is your projection
the real want is merely you doing “A”
you want to do “A” — therefore you do
everything else is an illusion
that’s why whatever you get out of it never even comes close to your image of it
because your image had nothing to do with reality
the story of getting-what-you-want is not a story of determination or strength or anything really
it’s a story of what you do
and you can only do things now
you can only do things now
only doing gets you things
therefore most your wants remain wants
because they have nothing to do with doing and everything to do with “wanting”
and once you happen to get what you “want”
it can never be nothing more but a disappointment
because it never is what you REALLY wanted, behind all your petty little wants
it is never the true DELIVERANCE
deliverance from the worldly problems and the imminent fucking death
we know it
we don’t need more proof
we all have gotten SOMETHING we wanted
and we hate it!
but we fail to admit that
it will never be better then this
it won’t
…
…now does it mean you can’t make your life better?
yes you can!
and you do
but that’s not what you “want”
you want all the swanky shit
not less problems
and your WANTING is the biggest problem of it all — the very cause of your strife and anxiety
you make your life better
by making your life freer
and yourself smaller
the movement of WANTING is the opposite
and you get a cheap thrill
a massive disappointment once you get it
and a lot of troubles along the way
…
I don’t even fucking discourage getting what you want
I think it’s imperative to get what you want
…as a kind of play, if you will!
don’t take this too seriously
do it for the sake of doing
get things because they come
but don’t ever get anyhow serious about tomorrow
because tomorrow you die
…
does it mean you ought not plan?
yes and no
you ought to be intelligent
you are intelligent TODAY
being intelligent about tomorrow is being intelligent today
is seeing the whole picture
is seeing the whole as one
tomorrow today yesterday — all as one
it’s not about you fucking up today to get a better tomorrow
it’s about you living perfectly today and tomorrow and every day
this is intelligent way to live and right and prudent
nothing careless about it
so again, please, my friend
focus on doing
the doing you do today
forget about wanting
forget about tomorrow
just focus on today
the single thing that’s in front of you
because that’s your entire life
that’s all it will ever be