Feeling is one of the ways you get information
But unlike objects you perceive on the outside — or thoughts you verbalize in your mind — feelings are quite intangible
Of course we NAMED many feelings
But it’s like naming colours. It really lacks detail and precision
It’s blue but what shade of blue? It’s yellow but isn’t it a little orange?
Feelings are intangible, really intangible
You can’t separate them from the perceiving person,
You can’t create them in a laboratory (or again: not in sufficient depth)
You can’t define them with a scientific precision and rigour
You can’t measure them in absolute terms
When you speak to someone of certain feeling — how confident you are that someone should understand this exact feeling?
You are not
You use words but words are not feelings
The REAL feeling is what you experience, experience on the inside — and you can’t replicate it on the outside, you can’t precisely define it
And this EMOTIONAL ILLITERACY is aggravated in the modern society
The problems we solve today — we solve them with our BRAINS
And feelings? Feelings we use as an ENTERTAINMENT
We TOY with feelings. We seek pleasure, seek excitation, seek titillation, seek diversion from boredom
We toy with feelings and entertain ourselves with feelings but we DON’T LEARN from our feelings
We enjoy feelings but we don’t duly respect feelings
Problems we solve we solve with logical steps and methods. We don’t guide ourselves with FEELINGS in this modern world. It’s too vague and intangible and subjective
We criticise emotionality. We believe it’s a weakness. We believe it’s a distortion.
This is not wrong
Misunderstood emotions are source of confusion
But so are misunderstood informations
To have more information which you don’t understand is to only get more confused
But to have more information which you successfully understand and assimilate and use — that is INTELLIGENCE
Which is effectiveness, fitness, success
Feelings are no different
We toy with feelings or let ourselves be confused by them, overwhelmed by them, because we don’t know any better
Instead of either acting or repressing an emotion — we should study it, inquire into it, learn from it, learn all there is to it
This is how we would acquire more information. More knowledge. More wisdom, truly.
And feelings are not as vague as we believe
More vague then the objective objects in the outside world, or mathematical formulas, defined with utmost rigour of logic, absolutely unambiguous.
But feelings are NOT AS VAGUE as we believe
And there’s much sophistication that can be developed
Again, JUST like colours
At first all green is just green, but then you start noticing that this green is darker, and that green is lighter, and this one is more dulled, and that one is greener
You develop an understanding, a discernment, a palate
And now when you see green it’s not merely “green”. It can be PINE GREEN or MINT GREEN or SPRING GREEN…
Likewise your feelings
And as you develop sophistication and understanding of your own feelings, of this whole tapestry of different moods and emotions and degrees of intensity and colours…
…you become more intelligent
Because those feelings are there for a reason
And now you gain extra insight
You feel something being a certain way
MAYBE YOU’RE RIGHT MAYBE YOU’RE WRONG
But you have this extra information
And you yourself feel certain way about something,
This collection of feelings within you will ultimately determine how your LIFE will feel, in general
It will determine if you’re angry or sad or happy
And if you’re not sensitive, you won’t even understand why one day you just woke up angry and stayed this way ever since
You don’t even understand all the constituent emotions, all the colours, which you could feel in your body, which you could learn from
Don’t be unfeeling. This has nothing to do with being logical
You want to FEEL — LEARN from that feeling — then ACT INTELLIGENTLY, utilising every information available
You want to become an EXPERT in the domain of your own feelings
You also want to become an expert in the domain of all humane feelings. Because you will work with humans, emotional animals who have feelings.
You want to name feelings like you’d name colours. Map their properties and characteristics.
(Of course you don’t want to become too reliant on your artificial little system. It’s only a tool, to bring a little more rigour to the subject.)
You want to develop an intuition.
What is intuition? It’s all the information which is INDEED AVAILABLE TO YOU — but NOT conscious (therefore not explicable)
You want to develop a profound sensitivity to every feeling which occurs in your body. You want to know exactly what it feels like, feel EVERYTHING that is to be felt, learn everything that is to be learned from it
Sit quietly with it. Give it all full attention. No distraction. Profound focus on it. This is MEDITATION.
This is how you become more intelligent — by this extra depth, this extra dimension, this extra realm
And the more sensitive and conscious you become — the more sense everything will start to make
Because FEELINGS drive us, obviously
If you don’t understand your drives then your attempts to drive yourself will of course be futile, Sisyphean
It’s FEELINGS which must change. And they must first be understood
Therefore
FEEL
be serious about it
become as sensitive as you can be
laugh, cry, love
maybe it’s not the world which is real? maybe it’s FEELINGS?
Feel