Life is tension
Tension between life and death
To be or not to be
Tension between being and not being
One day you are — next day you are not
Life is tension
One day you’re “good enough” — next day you’re rejected
The wisdom is not in convincing yourself that you are indeed “good enough”
The wisdom is understanding that NO ONE is good enough
Everyone is as good as dead, any time now
Death will release the tension
in the same time,
You release the tension
In mere realisation that whatever it is that you’re holding on for deal life to — can perhaps be JUST GIVEN THE FUCK UP
You can be free before you die
You can release the tension
And it goes deeper than this,
For it takes all this tension to MAKE THINGS BE THIS VERY SPECIFIC, VERY DEFINED WAY,
ENTIRE UNIVERSE craves but to move on,
But you’re holding
The tension mounts and mounts
You want things the way you WANT things
You won’t let things be the way they could be
You exert all this tension to impose your will on the world
Until the tension is so strong that it finally snaps
You die
If you just let go, the tension would be gone
You’d have more energy,
And the tide would take you there where it was going
An that place would perhaps be rather… LOVELY
Different
And lovely
Perhaps the world is larger than your idea of the world
Perhaps what’s LOVELY goes beyond what you had known to be lovely
And
Perhaps life’s a cruise
Perhaps life’s a cruise, not a struggle, not the unending tension
Perhaps you should just let go
Just enjoy what betides you
Just take the opportunities which spontaneously arise
Perhaps don’t take everything so fucking seriously
Or perhaps not?
Or perhaps both?
Perhaps life is both
Life is cruise
AND life is struggle, life is tension
Perhaps it can be one of the two, or both
Perhaps
Perhaps struggle is not something you suffer
Perhaps it’s something you choose
You can let go of the tension
OR YOU CAN HOLD IT
Perhaps you want a very concrete thing
Perhaps you want to be THE man
And perhaps it’s ok
And TO WANT is to know tension
Life’s a cruise, you don’t have to struggle
You can let the tide take you
You can die too, it’s ok
AND life’s a struggle, life’s unending TENSION
You’re one man against infinity
Striving to ripple this infinite plain
You can’t utter “I want”, or “I like”, or “I do” — without there being TENSION
Your preference, your intention — is the tension between your will and the will of the rest of the world, will of the infinite
CAN YOU SEE?
Life is tension you fucking cunt
The world owes you nothing, LIFE owes you nothing, god owes you nothing
You earn it
You WANT something — EXPERIENCE TENSION, EXPERIENCE STRUGGLE,
AND,
if you choose not to — you can CRUISE
And cruising is so wonderful too
And all this tension is exhausting and wastes your fucking energy
But if you only cruise — you don’t exist. You dissolve
Which is ALSO fine… if that’s the choice you made,
But you didn’t
YOU WANT THINGS — but DON’T WANT THE TENSION
You can’t have it this way
To WANT is to experience TENSION
And to CRUISE is to experience all the GLORY that you have not yet conceived of
And to CRUISE is to be FREE, free from EGO, free from attachment, free from desire, free from suffering, FREE FROM TENSION
OF COURSE do both
Just understand what is what