you can get “meaning” for cheap
truth you can never get for cheap
find any stupid game in which you score
more $ on your account
more kg on your barbell
more likes under the picture of your tits
more books read
more places seen
more alms given
more pain
meaning is so cheap
just find a game in which you increase your score
you get a glorious illusion of moving
glorious illusion of growing
meaning is so cheap
you complain for lacking meaning – when you’re really totally wired for meaning
your brain is meaning-making all the time
so much so that some silly video game so successfully supplants actual life
it’s scoresheet, the scoresheet of your video game character, your tommy vercetti your geralt your lara your sim — it’s more compelling then your own life
at least anytime you’re playing
indeed
anytime you’re playing — that very moment a fucking GAME takes precedent over your own life
oh you complain for lacking meaning?
verily
your meaning is garbage right?
actually GERALT and the DRAGONBORN — they have more meaning then you, and your bank account, your gym and your new car
meaning is not cheap
truth is not cheap
we buy cheap “meaning”
but it can never satisfy us
you know deep within that it’s not your meaning
you know you’re not a number
you know you’re not your 1RM
you know you’re not a car, not your car, not your dream car, not any other car
you know you’re not your fiancee
you know you’re not your dog
you know you’re not your avatar
you know you’re not your tits
you know you’re no gerald of riwia
it’s time to reconcile with
accounting to
nothing
it’s time to reconcile with the meaninglessness
only then can you find meaning
you must be meaningless first
you must understand that you can’t buy meaning
no one can sell you meaning, cheaply or otherwise
you must be meaningless first
you’re so desperate for meaning
all the time you’re doing something
you’re just pretending you’re so purposeful, so busy and useful, so serious and important
maybe even permanent
(no not really)
you must be meaningless first
you must see what your meaning is not
you must eradicate the falsehood first
all the delusions of your significance
all the dreams of your permanence
and all the ways you escape those truths
distract yourself from them
in your futile pursuits you call “meaning”
you must be meaningless first
then perhaps you should know meaning