Consider what it truly means to “use something as an escape”
To use something for a specific purpose is to NOT use it for a different purpose,
E.g. you could use an axe to chop down a tree and build yourself a wooden house — or you could use an axe to chop someone’s fucking head off
So to use something as an escape — you are failing to use it for it’s true purpose
I see many men use many things as an escape
Many “good” things
Things which should elevate them
But they don’t elevate them
Because they use them as an escape — rather than with the purpose of elevation
Indeed I see:
Men build great things — only they don’t do it for themselves, NOR for their neighbour — they do it out of boredom or fear of accounting to nothing.
Men create art, be artistic — only they don’t feel it, don’t fully feel it, it’s sometimes real art even, but they are not real artists yet, they are fancy and artsy.
Men share and men give and men smile — only there’s no love behind it, there’s only convention, only social contract, only desire to fit in
Men achieve great personal fits, become more than they were yesterday — only it serves no purpose, there’s no vision behind it, and there’s no love behind it — there’s only ego behind it, vanity behind it, and fashion behind it
The above is not necessarily horrible, this lack of sincerity, this confusion
But it can be horrible, when this dishonest, reactionary, panicked escape is excessive.
It can lead to deletorious caricatures that are not only insincere and thus poisonous to themselves — they are perverted, toxic versions of the ideals that the world cherished and demanded from them
But it’s not necessarily horrible. It can be quite desirable
I want men to build great things, to create art, to contribute to the society, and to grow themselves,
We benefit, the society benefits, the world benefits
But they don’t benefit
If they failed to do it sincerely — they are the one’s who are duped
The world told them that those were the most noble things to ever do within this lifetime
They believed it
But they didn’t feel it
They did it
But it did nothing for them
See,
There’s nothing higher than creativity
There’s nothing to do within this lifetime but to evolve
There’s no greater satisfaction than giving
There’s no greater celebration but the celebration of beauty
But
You don’t know it
You don’t know it
You have no fucking clue about it
You’re busy starving
Starving in greed, starving in lust, starving in pride, starving in anxiety, starving paying off debt…
You’re busy starving
The world sells you plenty false ideals, plastic garbage,
But the world also sells you high ideals, lofty ideals
And some of you become entrepreneurs and some of you become artists and some of you become writers and some of you become leaders …
Doesn’t matter, you’re busy starving
You don’t feel it
Of course plastic shit doesn’t uplift you
But the lofty doesn’t uplift you either
Because you’re starving
You’re only using it as an escape from starving
You don’t feel it
You’re not ready to feel it
You’re not ready for it to elevate you
You’re using it to escape from starving — you’re not using it to elevate yourself to divine realms of human condition
And this is why so many business people have shark eyes,
And artists are starving degenerates and junkies,
And servants of god are servants of perversion,
And you favourite self-improvement influencer is very loud and very busy convincing you of how improved he feels
They are just not ready for it
They are STARVED
They failed to deal with far simpler problems
This is of course not to say that there are no moments of sincerity in their activities,
This is not to say that those sincere moments of being pure — being creative, being giving, being loving, being focused and intelligent — that those moments don’t elevate and inspire their ENTIRE condition,
It’s just that this is not enough to extricate them from fucking SHIT
…
Wonderful and noble and beautiful things — if used as an escape from more fundamental problems — are WASTED
EVEN if engaged sincerely — likely not sufficient to uplift your entire life
If you’re a creator — create a better life
If you’re an artist — imagine and will a better reality
If you’re defender of love or god — love everything in your life first, and find god in everything
If you want to “grow” — make sure you grow into someone YOU Want to be, NOT into someone other’s wanted you to be
And if this fails — then you’re not ready
And there’s NOTHING wrong with it
Society told you you can be anything. It also told you that you are shit and you suck and you’re not ok.
YOU must decide what is good for you right now
PRESCRIPTION won’t do. You must YOURSELF know what you NEED.
Maybe you just need a sandwich.
Maybe you just need a hug.
Maybe you just need to FUCK the world.
Maybe NOW you want to give, or to be creative, or to see what you can be,
I don’t care what it is
Just make sure it’s sincere
Just make it sincere,
Otherwise it is an escape and only sets you behind, not forward
Don’t be tempted by false promises or REAL promises, neither matters if you’re not ready
Fall in love with reality
You are only what you did today
Quotidian or noble