I wrote that attachment alone is holding you back
I wrote that bad luck is great
Those two together result in:
You become attached to your great fortunes and advantages — and then you fear losing them — and then those are holding you back
It really is so that things you own end up owning you
Things include not just the material but also your IDEAS, BELIEFS, VALUES, MEMORIES, PLANS AND DREAMS
It fucking sucks NOT having
But the not-having at least don’t have the problem of having
They often have bigger problems,
But the problem of having is really really real
You don’t even notice when what you own become so precious to you that it ENSLAVES you,
— when your self-image becomes so precious to you that you’re scared to do anything — so as to not mar that perfect image
(i know so many people like that it’s terrifying. The sheer obsession with perfection resulting in growing inability to take any criticism, to take any risks, and eventually to see anything but the idealised egotic mirages)
— when your possessions become so precious to you that now you’re scared to even look at them, you’d rather dig a hole in the ground and dumb all of it there and forget
(i know so many people like that it’s terrifying. Whole life they chase the material only to dumb it all into some kind of “safe” hole in the ground)
— when your beliefs become so precious to you that now you don’t even hear the opposing views — you are effectively deaf to them
(i know so many people like that it’s terrifying. Whole life building one belief on top of another on top of another, until the edifice is so heavy and colossal and terrible that it becomes impossible to move but a single brick, it would require herculean strength, and it would result in the collapse of the entire fucking structure)
You must be extremely careful with your wants, desires, goals, pursuits, dreams
Because you won’t even realize when the price of attachment shall exceed the value you get from getting those things
It really is a great irony
Most men will stagnate relatively early into their lives. 30, 20 even.
Some will persist in their struggles.
Those that will consistently succeed at ELEVATING themselves will be the rarest ones — rather OBSESSED with the end
And they will often pay the dearest price
“Their soul”, as the saying goes
It’s not far from the truth
Therefore,
It really must be kind of a balance between those seemingly conflicting perspectives:
EFFORT and EFFORTLESS
STRESS and RELEASE
DESIRE and CONTENTMENT
FRENZY and CALM
MORE and LESS
HARDER and SOFTER
CHANGE and THE CHANGELESS
WILL and SURRENDER
In practice,
Let go of everything you want
Let go of everything you have,
then get it anyway,
have it anyway,
then let go of it again,
then fight again,
live passionately again,
live calmly again,
reconciling the two perspectives at all times,
going extremely intensely one moment,
then extremely slowly the other moment,
working hard then resting hard
wanting more and more and more and more
then giving it all up
giving it all up — for the next thing,
then giving THAT thing up,
nothing’s dear to you
everything’s dear to you
everything is changing, changing, changing, all the time,
and everything is changeless, changeless, always changeless, forever changeless