Men have problems.
Problem is not just something that is causing you obvious hassle at the moment.
Problem can be something that is causing you anxiety at mere thought of,
even something you’re not even aware of. You don’t have to be consciously aware of something for it to trouble you, poison you,
Depending on the size of problem one of many things could be happening:
-small problem you may brush off
-medium problem you may resolve to solve
-big problem you may resolve to solve but fail . May decide against continuing the strive to overcome
-and MASSIVE problem may just overwhelm you entirely, and you won’t even attempt it, you’ll only feel it’s weight suffocate you even more
Indeed problems have weight.
And you have strength.
If the problem’s weight is well matched by your strength — you carry it or move it out of the way.
If it’s heavy — you may not be so eager to exert yourself.
If it’s very heavy — you may even break your back.
And if you do find yourself under such heavy weight, suffocating you — you will beg others to relieve you, and release you, and SAVE YOU.
You will beg others to relieve you, to SAVE YOU,
You will want to UNLOAD some of that weight on them
You will do this to SAVE yourself,
You may not be consciously aware of it, that you’re doing it.
You may not be consciously aware that you’re burdening them with your own problems, that you’re putting them down so that you can relieve yourself,
If you were to admit that — then it would only make it harder to relieve some of that weight!
And when it’s heavy — you’re desperate.
This is all there is to evil.
It’s just the excess weight.
You are born once, and you die once
You are born. There’s some joy. There’s some pain. Then there’s death. And it all zeros.
It all zeros for you, individually.
But you may want to be greedy. You may want to have some more joy, more satisfaction, more gratification — and less pain, and less disappointment, and less problems,
And you may give some of those problems to others.
That’s all there is to evil.
That’s all there is to evil. You unloading your burden on others.
And you may not even mean it.
If you were so happy and so free from troubles — then you’d have no weight to give to others. If anything — you’d uplift them.
And AGAIN — what is “HEAVY” is relative. It depends on your strength.
Therefore don’t judge nobody for failing to carry their cross. Maybe they’re too weak for it.
And there’s no such thing as better justification of wrongdoing or worse justification of wrongdoing…
There’s only MALADAPTATION.
INABILITY to SOLVE THOSE PROBLEMS by oneself.
There is nothing else.
And we ALL carry a cross.
We ALL have problems,
When your belly is not hungry — your mind is hungry.
When there’s no sabre-toothed tiger chasing you — a fucking DEADLINE is chasing you. And a fucking mortgage.
When your neighbour is not actively trying to kill you — he is getting another car, and poor you only have 3 cars
We all have problems,
We become stronger by unendingly solving problems.
We become weaker by NOT solving problems,
And eventually our problems consolidate into two groups:
-problems we accept with resignation
-and problems that completely overwhelm us
That’s what happens if you’re not proactively striving to SOLVE MORE PROBLEMS,
You start denying them,
Or complaining about them and doing nothing with them,
Or breaking your back on them and never walking again.
The conclusion?
WEAKNESS actually is EVIL.
And EVIL itself is just weakness.
You, in accepting your weakness — inadvertently endangered those around you, not just yourself.
And then you being EVIL is ultimately just lack of strength to deal with your problems yourself,
However OF COURSE you didn’t just choose to be evil.
And OF COURSE in hindsight you’d rather be STRONG!
But you did not know.
You DID NOT KNOW.
You did not know you had to be strong. No one told you.
Life DIDN’T BLESS YOU with BAD LUCK. Didn’t bless you with STRESSORS which would let you grow
At the end it’s all just a random sequence of cause and effect, if even that
You didn’t ask for too few problems,
You didn’t ask for too big of a problem, the one that would break your back,
You didn’t ask to be evil, evil out of desperation,
At the end all just is what it is
And the only thing you just learned is that your silly labels of “GOOD AND BAD”, “RIGHT AND WRONG”, “STRENGTH and WEAKNESS” — they are all innately just utterly empty
The only value gained is that of now being LIBERATED from those labels,
This value is expressed in now having CLARITY in regard to what you must do
Which is to DO BETTER TODAY
Better than yesterday,
This means you’ll take a problem you can tackle — and you’ll DEAL with it,
And then you’ll take on harder problem,
And then on harder problem still,
And so on, until the day you are liberated in death,
And let’s hope this death should come before the weight will be so crushing so as to force you to impose it on others