Gift of suffering is gift of gratitude

Gift of good fortune is poisoned

 

NOT ALWAYS,

I don’t want no martyrs.

Martyrdom and pessimism are self-fulfilling prophecies

Kill yourself like a martyr and tell me what good it brought, if you can

 

But yes

You become virtually DISABLED from gratitude, appreciation — when you:

-have gotten it too easily

-have gotten used to it

It’s a prison

 

Light is only bright next to darkness

If all you know is light — then you don’t know light

You really don’t know light. Not just philosophically

If all you know is having something — you can’t conceive of not having it

You can make yourself entertain such thought, philosophically… but it’s still just an abstraction. You know it’s not real

You know it’s not real because IT’S NOT REAL. You NEVER KNEW different reality.

 

Likewise with getting something easily,

How could you possibly value it?

You can try convincing yourself that’s it’s rare, it’s valuable, or how much you’re fond of it

But the REAL PRICE is the PRICE YOU PAID FOR IT

 

We get used to things really quickly

I suppose it makes sense. Once things have been FIXED a certain way — and PROVEN over time to stay — why should you waste your mental resources on it any longer? Go do something new

This is both a feature and a bug

It hopefully makes you do something new

It unfortunately continuously supplies you with new reasons to be impatient, unhappy, and fucking ungrateful

 

Therefore

Please APPRECIATE your struggles

Not out of greed for the future “gratitude” you will obtain, a future smug satisfaction with having overcame great adversity. This would have made it false, disingenuous, contrived.

CALMLY appreciate your struggle as giving you INSIGHT into RELATIVITY OF VALUE

And TEACHING YOU IN GENERAL what it means to be GRATEFUL

 

Because even if you’re somehow made “grateful” for one thing — you’ll still be a thankless bastard with something else

It’s inevitable

The real lesson is that FEELING of GRATITUDE, period

INCLUDING sense of GRATITUDE for STRUGGLE AND ADVERSITY — which are THE best teachers

And finally: compassion for those who never learned those lessons. Shut in their golden palaces with their pills

 

Close your eyes and experience gratitude

If you struggled for it, if you sacrificed a lot for it, if you suffered for it, if you paid a steep price for it — now that you have gotten it — PERHAPS you can appreciate it

Perhaps you can be grateful for it

Close your eyes and experience this this appreciation, experience this gratitude

Experience this love

Memorise that feeling

Try looking at everything else around you with that feeling

Conceive of your own rotting flesh not long from now

Then experience that feeling again

Don’t let it fade away