What To Do Before You Die

When you:

-do your best

-ALWAYS seek to still do better, never satisfied

-stay utterly humble: perfectly separated from your work, verily just an instrument of god (or world, or devil, or money, or muse, or destiny, you name it)

-ITERATE LIKE FUCKING CRAZY

-and get lucky

+aren’t crazy (we all are a little)

then there is nothing more to doubt,

nothing more that you can do,

no more magic tricks left, no more secrets

now it’s just showing up,

and ENJOYING EVERY BIT OF IT,

and when you die — even if you failed — there is no doubt

there is only satisfaction

except you really shouldn’t fail if the above conditions are the case

The above is simple but not easy

Who really always does his best?

Who doesn’t get complacent?

Who doesn’t cease improving?

It’s so easy to get trapped in a comfortable spot in which we feel like we made it, like we’re good enough, like this is enough,

It’s never enough

If you want to do better — then there’s NO FINISH LINE

Better is always better than what already is

It’s a lifestyle

Who stays humble?

You don’t want to stay humble

If you ever achieve anything — you will be ecstatic to make it your identity,

a doctor, a lawyer, a gangster, a businessman, a traveller, an artist, a thinker, a “free spirit”, a leader, a fighter, an underdog, a millionaire, a billionaire, a “real man”, a “liberated woman”, an animal lover, a philanthropist, an entrepreneur…

You’re none of that

You’re just a dude DOING THINGS

DOING YOUR BEST

This is the truth,

But no, you want to be more

You want to be more because you felt worse one day, when you were young

And ever since you sought to be more, just so as to be good enough

Well

You’re neither better nor worse — you’re JUST A DUDE DOING THINGS

(And doing things better every day)

Do well and maybe it will all be well: for you, for others

Do poorly and maybe it will not be so great: for you, for others

But the elementary truth doesn’t change, in that THE MOMENT YOU DO SOMETHING — you are a PERSON DOING THAT THING,

Nothing else defines you

Every single moment you can completely change your life

Leave it all behind, and do something different altogether

Every single moment you can completely change your life: completely ruin your life, completely transform your life

Therefore you’re no one

Just a dude doing things

Therefore humble the fuck up and do your best

Who really tries one million things?

Most get a job, get a family, get a house, host a bbq, and then die

Usually when you do the same thing you get the same outcome

Usually when you do different things you get different outcomes

Therefore it you want better outcomes, which are DIFFERENT OUTCOMES — you have to take better actions, which are DIFFERENT ACTIONS

And since you probably are not sure what actions to take — you must EXPERIMENT

And getting different outcomes means getting a lot of better outcomes and a lot of worse outcomes

It means failing a lot more then you did when doing your usual business

But it means succeeding a lot more then you did when doing your usual business

Finally you must get lucky

How do you win a lottery?

You buy a lot of tickets

The problem with lottery is that you’ll go broke before you win

The problem with lottery is that even if you win — over infinite amount of time you’ll lose more then you win (that’s how lotteries make money, obviously)

But in life?

In life there are tickets which cost you nothing

Nothing but time, obviously

Time is a limited resource. Therefore you don’t want to waste it all before you win.

But unlike a lottery — you can actually pick the winning bets

There are no certainties — but certain actions yield better outcomes than others

You engage in those actions and expect your superior outcomes

Some of your bets will be failed and you will waste your precious time

Some will be lucrative

Finally

You mustn’t be crazy

If you hate yourself — then you “win” by losing.

So don’t hate yourself. Because then you can’t win.

Ask yourself why you hate yourself

Maybe you can’t forgive yourself, which is why you must be punishing yourself

Remember that your self-hate lies in your subconscious. This is why you are conflicted. This is why you say you want one thing and do another.

Close your eyes for an hour every day and watch every single thought and feeling

Understand that this is the REAL YOU. The “you” which is rambling his conditioned rationalization is just the tip of the iceberg. The REAL YOU is how you feel when you close your eyes, cease distracting yourself, look within, let the superficial raving pass, and see how you really feel, what you really think

Therein lies the truth about yourself — which you must sort out

Or else you’ll be crazy

It’s not just self-hate

It’s anything you hold on to

Any nonsensical conception that you learned and now operates as your muscle memory — deciding everything you do and everything you feel and everything you think.

You must dig it out and let go of it — or else you’ll never see reality

Once you’re not crazy — NOW you’re free to grow

And do well

Is there anything more to it?

I don’t think there is

Please be simple

and do your best before you die