to do what you want
this could be everything that ever needs to be said about life
the deepest words,
most misunderstood of all the words, quite certainly.
We don’t do what we want. We do what we hate.
We don’t do what we want. We do what we think we want.
We don’t do what we want. We just do the same stupid shit we do every day. The same routine. Habit is the very opposite of excellence. Habit is a fucking nightmare.
There’s the beautiful word: Harmony.
I think at the end of HARMONY, there’s the DOING OF WHAT YOU WANT.
Or, perhaps, the *doing of what you want* is somewhere within the wholeness of HARMONY,
What I’m saying is that — we never do what we want. We never even tried.
We don’t do what we want.
We are hedonistic but that’s not what we want. It’s what we think we want. We think we want more pleasure. We don’t want more pleasure. It doesn’t bring us pleasure. And we know it. But we’re hedonistic out of habit. Or else – we turn into ambition.
(we pleasure ourselves uninhibitedly – or else we turn to discipline and ambition, seeking “higher” cause. Usually, we do both, to some extent.)
We don’t do what we want.
Society took this away from us.
What kind of society encourages DOING WHAT YOU WANT?
The society tells you everything to do but never to do what you want.
We are conditioned to compliance.
It runs so deep. We are conditioned to achieve and perform and produce and earn… we are never encouraged to just BE, and DO (whatever we want).
This must be understood! We learnt to TALK a lot about DREAMS — but that’s where it ends! Even our DREAMS are conditioned!! What we *want* is CONDITIONED. We are TAUGHT what we want. We don’t know what we want. We never follow ourselves. We never listen to ourselves. Even our self-realisation is just self-denial.
NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE EXTENT TO WHICH YOU DELUDE YOURSELF TO NOT DO WHAT YOU WANT. You’ll see yourself finding every kind of an excuse to prevent yourself from PLUNGING into the WORLD.
*WHAT WE WANT* is incredibly subtle,
incredibly simple,
profound yet
oh I obviously can’t tell you what it is – then it wouldn’t be what you do want.
What I know is that you must reconstruct entirely your idea of what you want,
you must cleanse completely,
you must enquire EXTREMELY deeply,
you must watch vigilantly every thought, every process, every memory around this idea of yours, idea of what you want,
and you must TRY THOSE THINGS!
How often do you just UNAPOLOGETICALLY do EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT?
You always have some stupid fucking reason to not do something.
Do you want it or do you want it not?
See, we are all so conflicted. It’s a fact isn’t it? You want one thing but don’t want another. You don’t know what to do. All this is confusion, all this is conflict.
well how do you resolve those conflicts? How do you learn?
You EXPERIMENT. You TEST. And OBSERVE. And LEARN.
NOSCE TE IPSUM.
Enquire into yourself.
HARMONY.
Now you can see how this pertains to harmony.
How can you be harmonious if you are conflicted?
How can you be harmonious if you don’t know yourself?
How can you be harmonious if you don’t know what to do? Don’t know why you do things? What for?
*
DO WHAT YOU WANT!!
TRY THINGS.
DO NEW THINGS.
SEEK!
LEARN!
If you want to do something – do it NOW.
If you don’t do it now — there is NO TOMORROW.
UNDERSTAND THIS TRUTH!
What you don’t do today — you won’t do tomorrow.
Because when you want something — you DO IT.
It’s THAT simple. MAKE IT that simple. Stop enshrouding the whole thing in some kind of perverted mystery. “I do this if I get that if I do that….”
We really, really, really don’t do what we want. We do all sorts of nonsense but not what we want. We have billion fucking reasons why we do this and do that but we never simply DO. Our life is this gigantic balloon inflated with nothing but meaningless action, unauthentic pursuits, flimsy pleasure-seeking, pointless duties and rules and codes, convoluted grand plans of nothing…
END ALL THAT and just DO SOMETHING AUTHENTIC.
Peace.