Truth is confidence
If you know the truth
Then you KNOW
To know is obviously to be confident
And to know, actually know, is to know the truth
therefore to know the truth is to be confident
(If you know the sky is blue — you are CONFIDENT the sky is blue.
If you know the sun will rise tomorrow — then you are confident the sky will rise tomorrow
If you know that if you want you can move your finger — then you are confident you can move your finger)
bear with me
We want to be confident
We want to be secure
We want to be strong
We don’t want to be insecure
How do you go about it?
TRUTH
How do you get this TRUTH, that will make you confident?
You learn what you know and learn what you don’t know
You OWN what you don’t know — and OWN what you know
You admit both
You know how to drive your car
You don’t know how to fly your car
You are confident driving your car
You are confident NOT FLYING your car
Do you understand?
If you know that you can’t fly your car — then you don’t have to worry about it
You are confident
You are confident about what you can do with a car and what you can’t do with a car
You don’t have to know EVERYTHING about the car
You have to KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW (know how to drive) — and KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW (how to fly a car, or how to repair a car, or whatever)
…oh and of course it doesn’t matter if cars can fly. MAYBE THEY CAN?
What matters is that you KNOW what you CAN DO with that car — and KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW
If you know that you don’t know if cars can fly — then this is the end of that question
And you are CONFIDENT
…But what do we do instead?
First we’re ignorant. We rarely know.
If you know nothing — then indeed there is nothing you can be confident about.
Then we PRETEND WE KNOW. Which is to DENY what we DON’T KNOW.
Which is even worse…
Does pretending that we know works?
No. Because truth cannot be denied. And moment to moment your false knowledge is invalidated. The truth never ceases. The truth just is — and all the time.
Therefore ALL THE TIME your untruth is denied by the truth.
It’s just that you keep pretending that it’s not so.
However deep within you know it. You’re not stupid. You know that when the sky is blue — it’s not fucking green
Therefore deep within you know that you don’t know
And if you only admitted that you DON’T KNOW — that would be CONFIDENCE
You would KNOW that you don’t know — and to KNOW — is to BE CONFIDENT.
Do you understand?
BY KNOWING THAT YOU DON’T KNOW — you TRANSFORM THE UNKNOWN. YOU ARE NOW CONFIDENT ABOUT IT. YOU KNOW, YOU ARE CONFIDENT — that it is just UNKNOWN.
But when you DENY IT — then you are conflicted
And this CONFLICT is nothing less but what we call INSECURITY
INSECURITY is the realization that WHAT YOU THINK YOU KNOW YOU DON’T KNOW
And then you either accept it — and transform it
Or you still deny it — and perpetuate this insecurity.
INSECURITY IS REALIZATION THAT WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW YOU DON’T KNOW
It will instantly go away if you:
—actually learn, actually come to know
—or now ADMIT that you DON’T KNOW, that you can’t control
You can learn a lot of things and become confident (about those things)
You can learn how the clock works and be confident what time it is.
You can taste an apple and know the taste of apples.
You can learn the rules of chess and be confident how a knight fucking moves.
You can learn a lot of things and become confident (about those things)
And many things you can’t learn — or WON’T LEARN (your time is finite, knowledge is infinite) — and you MUST ADMIT that THOSE THINGS YOU DON’T KNOW, and CAN’T CONTROL
And then you’re instantly confident
And of course this confidence is relative
Chess confidence pertains to chess. Confidence about the taste of an apple pertains to apples. Etc.
You turn to another thing — you’re INSECURE AGAIN
You have to DECIDE: DO I KNOW THIS THING — or DO I NOT KNOW?
DO I WANT TO KNOW THIS THING — OR NOT?
CAN I EVEN KNOW THIS THING?
Any time you encounter something knew — those question arise — and not until you answered them — not until then does INSECURITY end.
Answer can be instantaneous, mind you, and it usually is. You just instantly answer “I DON’T KNOW” — and insecurity instantly goes away.
E.g.: “Where is this car going? I don’t know. I’m going in the other direction. DOESN’T MATTER”
Alas with some things we’re not so quick to decide that we DON’T KNOW — nor are we quick to KNOW (to learn and become knowing about that thing)
And this is how we become deluded
And this is how we become insecure, in yet another matter
And this was only relative confidence
And there are levels to it
There’s the overarching confidence — which is the CONFIDENCE ABOUT ALL THINGS, ALL EXISTENCE.
And then there’s specific confidence, pertaining to apple, to dog, to car, to hammer, to nails…
And those objects can be grouped.
Apple is grouped with other fruits, dog with other animals, car with other vehicles, etc.
And you can ALSO have KNOWLEDGE about those groups, you can NOT HAVE KNOWLEDGE about those groups, and you can THINK YOU HAVE KNOWLEDGE ABOUT THOSE GROUPS (when in truth you don’t)
And the higher up such hierarchy we get — the more COMPLEX it becomes.
The more there is to KNOW.
And the more is at stake.
And that’s when we delude ourselves the most.
And this is how we become deeply insecure, rather then deeply confident
And this is how we become deeply insecure, rather then deeply confident
We reach some very high level of abstraction.
It’s complex.
Some things we know about it, some we don’t, and some we refuse to admit that we don’t know.
What are such deep complexes?
—IDENTITY
—VALUE
—CAREER
—MONEY
—the WORLD, the SOCIETY
—PHILOSOPHY
—GOD, ALIENS…
Most those things we’re utterly confused about
Some of us are crazy
Some of us actually FUNCTION in the world
Some even manage to continue improving in those areas
But we never truly “KNOW”
Perhaps we can know a little
The goal is to learn a little bit more
But the real catch is to KNOW WHAT WE DON’T KNOW
Therefore you learn
And what you learned…
…if it’s true — which means it’s TESTED…
…it makes you more confident
But it is only when you KNOW WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW — is when you become supremely confident,
and at peace,
and attain profound clarity,
and ironically: you then learn a lot of what you didn’t know too — because now that you NO LONGER DENY IT — you are actually READY TO RECEIVE IT (the truth)
So ultimately
INSECURITY is a barometer of your ignorance and delusion. It reveals that which you’re ignorant about — and how you refuse to accept this ignorance (or change it)
CONFIDENCE, true calm confidence — is the state of KNOWING
And this state of knowing includes KNOWING WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW
And it’s actually a circle
For knowledge builds upon knowledge,
Which leads to more confidence
Which leads to learning yet more: more experimentation, more learning, more doing
Whereas the opposite happens when there is delusion
It’s a viscous downward loop — you continue clutching to your delusions, as world keep invalidating them, and you continue your denial, creating more and more nonsensical ad hoc explanations to why REALITY is YOUR WAY, rather than the actual way
Finally, can there be confidence in delusion?
On the surface level, yes. That’s how many live in their bubble — completely oblivious to the world outside of it — utterly confident within it’s bound
However when you truly examine such person — there is always a degree of conflict dwelling within
There is simply not that profound sense of peace and conviction which characterises those ACTUALLY interested in the TRUTH — and ready to test it in the world — and ready to DIE for it.
You know that if you put those “delusionally confident” in a challenging context — there would simply not be this profound calmness of the truth
See TRUTH doesn’t need to be defended. It just is
You would likely not get upset if a little child argued with you that a plane in the sky is just a bird
You know what you know, you know what you don’t know, you know what the child doesn’t know — and you are completely at peace
But when there is doubt — there immediately is weakness
And it manifests in false superiority, degree of hostility, defensive attitude, desire to win an argument, desire to be right…
And of course it manifests in unwillingness to hear the other side, hear the counterarguments
Unwillingness to CHALLENGE oneself
This is no true strength, no true confidence
Therefore
PLEASE be DOUBTFUL, INSECURE
This is an invitation to inquire, to learn
And please be CONFIDENT, be KNOWING
Please become CONFIDENT by KNOWING WHAT YOU WANT TO KNOW, and KNOWING EVERYTHING ELSE THAT YOU DON’T KNOW
Truth is confidence