You can’t judge me too harshly

Because you could never judge me harsher than I already judge myself

 

I am my harshest judge,

Because I’m in love with myself

I am my harshest judge because I want the BEST for myself

 

Reality doesn’t give a fuck what we think about it

And I don’t give a fuck what reality is like

I want to know the reality as it is

So that I can FASHION it according to MY DESIGN

And in doing so — get WHAT I WANT

And in doing so — PLEASE myself

 

How could I be too harsh on myself?

If I know this is to my utmost benefit

 

And now how could you be too harsh on me?

If you’re doing better than me — I will be working to bridge that gap

PLEASE inform me how I could be doing better

 

And how could you HURT MY SELF-ESTEEM?

I already hold myself to HIGHER STANDARDS than you do

I outwork you, I out-care you, I out-concentrate you, I out-prioritise you, I out-love you, I out-LIVE you (when I’m alive)

I FUNDAMENTALLY already do EVERYTHING I MUST DO AND MORE

You telling me “I’m not up to standards” can thus NEVER be a general statement — because I have already decided that I’m up to the HIGHEST STANDARDS

That my MINIMAL STANDARD is THE highest standard

Thus the only meaning of what you’re telling me is very specific — there’s something SPECIFIC I could be doing better,

PLEASE give me that intel, please allow me to catch up with my “competitors”

 

…except of course there’s no competition, it’s just me

I’m too selfish to compete with others

I’m too proud to compete with anyone but myself

I’m in the ME-game

I’m in the DO BEST FOR MYSELF game

Not some stupid games with stupid rewards

Me outcompeting you is only the side-effect of me outcompeting me

 

Finally,

Though you can’t judge me too harshly,

you can judge me UNFAIRLY

and in this case,

again

HOW COULD I CARE?

If it’s unfair — then it’s untrue — by definition

If it was fully true — it would be fully fair

Harsh, but fair

 

And what if I don’t KNOW if you’re being harsh or unfair?

What about it, right?

FUCK ALL

It’s just ONE OF MANY THINGS I DON’T KNOW, that CONFUSE ME

It shall merely have me ask “WHY”

Ask you to EXPLAIN

Ask you to PROVIDE MORE DETAIL

Maybe ask someone else for a second opinion

Likely have me RE-CHECK my existing assumptions

 

…and that’s it

If it helps me — I take it

If it doesn’t — then how would I care?

Supposedly we’ll run out of SUN in 5 billion years,

Do I think much about it? FUCK NO